Saturday, November 12, 2011

The Conversion of Squeek and Me

by Donna L. Watkins

This is a good news / bad news story. The bad news is short and at the beginning, but the good news is what we're rejoicing over now.

Squeek on Screened Porch
During the first week of November, I noticed Squeek, our kitty, wasn't eating as much as usual. On Monday, November 7 she stopped eating and drinking totally. She's an FIV cat so like humans with HIV, she's supposed to have a very weakened immune system.

Since she's had two major crises that she wasn't supposed to live through, I am always on alert to notice small signs.

What was happening was the same thing as over two years ago when she was diagnosed with pancreatitis, inflammatory bowel disease and possible lymphoma. She didn't eat for 21 days then, other than what I got into her. At that time I spent six weeks by her side as many of you know since I posted a few reports on how she was doing as so many of you prayed for her.

This time the battle was won in 5 days. I used only a few herbs and didn't stay up round the clock, but instead placed my faith in what the Bible says. The real battle is in the mind where I had to constantly kill fearful thoughts with the Word, our two-edged sword (Hebrews 4:12).

I believe it was not letting fear sprout any roots that really made the difference in my prayers, and since I had sent an email out to some friends and family to pray also, we had the power of prayer multiplied in agreement.

We were blessed to be able to get sub-cutaneous fluids and blessed to have a terrific pet sitter available to administer them on Tuesday evening so the body could continue to urinate out the toxins that were being killed off. Getting enough water in with droppers is a very slow process so Squeek and I both buried our face into the corner of her basket while Teresa did the procedure.

She ate a bit on Thursday, a lot on Friday and Saturday morning she had a BM after 5 days without one. An empty colon is hard to get moving, but we had added some fiber to her diet to help. She's eaten on her own since then, but I am continuing to pray for total healing. She's 15-1/2 but still has a lot of life left to live. The devil meant it for evil, but God will use it for good to build my own faith for continued healing in my own health.

God gave me Squeek two weeks after my favorite kitty died at 21. She looks just like her, all black and tiny face. I have different views and beliefs now about healing than I've had in the past. I've realized that God does not give diseased and sick gifts. What kind of Father would do that to His child?

Every GOOD and PERFECT gift is from God (James 1:17). Not once did Jesus or any of His disciples use disease to "teach" anybody anything. None of His disciples died diseased that I know of (please inform if you know otherwise). Actually Jesus gave them authority to heal every kind of disease and illness (Matthew 10:1).

Sure, I've learned a lot by having my own disease issues, but it's not God's way of teaching. He simply uses every evil attack from the Enemy for any good He can within us. The Bible was given for our correction and instruction (2 Tim. 3:16) and Jesus said the Father would send the Comforter (Holy Spirit) who would teach us all things (Jn. 14:26). God doesn't need disease, but the devil is still in a battle against God and God's children, desiring to kill, steal and destroy our lives and bodies.

My Bible reads by His (Jesus') stripes we WERE healed. The Greek language is very specific about tenses of verbs so there's no doubt that's what was written. I've spoken that verse but never understood how deep the statement, "Without faith, it is impossible to please God" was (Hebrews 11:6). We've been given faith (Romans 12:3), but it's the unbelief that is the problem.

What we have buried in our mind as our belief is what the body will respond to. As we think in our heart, so are we (Proverbs 23:7). So we end up with wavering faith. We say we believe the Bible, but our thoughts/belief rule the physical body. So it's easy to see why my unbelief overrode my faith because James 1:6 says, "But let him ask in faith, with no doubting, for the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea that is driven and tossed by the wind. For let not that man think that he shall receive any thing of the Lord."

I tried to stick that verse along with many others in a 'confused and misunderstood file'. I've had a lot of wrong religious teaching growing up and through my adult life, so for me, a mind renewal is a major overhaul these days. Since we've been listening to several series of teaching by Andrew Wommack, all of the "unfiled" theology is now so clear and my spirit leaps with joy and peace at having the confusion and doubt leave. It's been a brand new world.

I'm certainly still learning and will always be, but to finally have found teaching over the past few months that pulls it all together with references throughout the Bible, instead of one verse to support a particular concept. This has been so satisfying to our spirits.

I've always said I believed that the Bible is the inerrant Word of God and it's active and alive to fulfill our every need (Hebrews 4:12), and yet I obviously did not believe all of it by my actions and words that would come forth from my mouth. Jesus said over and over again that we need only to BELIEVE to have what we ask for.

You can have faith but if you have unbelief in what you're actually praying for, it can't come to pass. It's simply a law like gravity. It's how God designed it to work.

We began in Andrew's teaching with a series called, Spirit, Soul and Body, which turned out to be the very foundation of everything else we've listened to. What led me to this website was getting a book for my birthday called, God Wants You Well. That began the dumping process of removing wrong teaching and renewing my mind as we are told to do by Paul in Romans 12:2 so that we can "prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God."

The old adage is that the more we learn the more we realize how much we do not know. God is so faithful to answer our prayers when Knowing God is more important than anything we want in this life. The Holy Spirit guides us into Truth if we earnestly seek Him instead of gratifying the desires of our flesh.  Self-centeredness is certainly at the root of many of society's worst problems today.

The series I've linked above are TV broadcasts. The teaching is also available in a variety of download formats. I have saved some MP3's on CDs so I can listen to them in the car or as I work around the house.

All of this ministry's teaching is available free on their website in a variety of formats and that impresses me greatly. Another thing I really like is the teaching style since Andrew sits at a table and teaches from the Bible without any flash or distractions. I'm easily distracted, so I don't need somebody that's continually on the move.  If you choose to listen or watch any of them, I pray you have the eyes of your heart are open.  Be led by the spirit.

I've certainly not "arrived" but as Andrew says, "I've left."  We're all on a journey, but I want the "life more abundant" that Jesus came to give us.  May God help us all to see more and more revelation within His Word.

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1 comment:

Anonymous said...

oh donna, I can’t even believe you mentioned andrew wommack!!! oh YES I can!!! our pastor has been doing a mid week teaching on body mind and spirit. I am just so blessed that the Lord speaks to everyone!! and it is such a confirmation that we are hearing the Lord. so exciting I just had to share.

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